I wasn't sure how to start this post, but I knew it had to be written, because it was a big 'AH-HA!' moment for me today. The basic plot point? Everyone ALWAYS has way more going on in their lives than you can EVER imagine, so cut them a break.
Being grown up is hard. I have not had the greatest 2012. I have def. had some great highlights, but to counter those, I have also had some pretty low lows, as well. And let's not forget about the in-between blahs. Right now, I am looking forward to 2013 more than I ever had to a year changing. But for as many ups and downs as I have had this year, I know every person I care about in the world could counter with their own, and this is something we (I) forget a lot.
I recently was at a pretty low point, and reached out to a few of my closest friends from around the globe. A month later, I hadn't heard back from any of them. I was pretty darn hurt, to say the least. But then it happened, I heard back from one, who of course, was busy with her own life, but sweet as always. Then I wrote back to two others, and got the replies I expected, full of love, and full of truly reasonable reasons. Why? Because they had started new jobs of their own, moved across the country, gone through big break ups, settling still in foreign counties, etc. ALL HUGE THINGS. Now I am not downgrading how I felt, because it was not a bright moment, but I took a breathe, and remembered why all these girls were my friends, and how much it sucks to live to far away from those nearest and dearest...for everyone involved.
I also recently have gotten to the age where a lot of my older relatives are passing away, and my cohorts in family are getting married. I would love to make it to all these things, but having a family of 27 first cousins, it is just unrealistic. This doesn't mean that I don't get pissed at myself for not having the saving to fly across country on a whim to be with family. Or that I don't get frustrated that I don't have a 'real' job (which, still in my mind means 'adult' sadly) and can't do what I consider adult obligations of being with family and friends when we need each other the most.
This post has been a lot of blabber, but I guess what I am trying to get at is that we all lead such big complex lives. And remembering that fact is something we all need to remember, myself included. At least I think that was the point..